Day 2 - Commitment
I originally prepared this blog to document the beginning of a new job, but over 2 months after being laid off there is no job in sight. Therefore, I am choosing to use this for something more positive.
Today should have been the 22nd day of my latest effort to lose the weight and stick to the Nutrisystem plan. However, I've been off track due to falling back on "excuses" and just being lazy. As such, I've decided to renumber the days. I haven't been "on track" for 22 days. It's only been 2. At day 22 the first time around I had lost 18 pounds, so it makes more sense to go back to Day 2 instead of chasing yet another impossible goal. I lost 7 pounds the first week of Nutrisystem in 2019, can I get to 273 by next Sunday ? My only concern is my weekly rock & roll bingo trips. I usually have 2 beers or glasses of wine and a buffalo chicken wrap with homemade chips. I think this week I will get the chicken Caesar wrap since it uses grilled chicken and no cheese. Last week I ate the whole wrap, so this week the goal will be to eat half.
Today is day 2. My original Day 2 looked much different. It was a Saturday and I had been on vacation for the holidays. Spoiler alert: at the time, I didn't know a huge life change was on the horizon.
Breakfast was a 180 calorie cinnamon roll and late morning I had an 80 calorie yogurt. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt. Dinner was a 250 calorie meatloaf sandwich with a little bbq sauce and the rest of the brussel sprouts. I had made my protein shake but never drank it, so I'll have that tomorrow. I also never had an afternoon snack. Evening snack was a lemon zest cake with a scoop of ice cream, since my calories for the day were sitting at 730.
I was in bed by 10 last night only because I wasn't feeling well. It was just those darn raw carrots tearing up my guts ! By the time I got up this morning (close to 9 am) I was feeling better. After 2 trips to the bathroom, I was feeling like my old self again. I weighed myself and the scale read 279.4 - so I'd say my guess of 280 yesterday was accurate. I need to lose 80 more pounds to get to Onederland (199 pounds). It took me 10 months to get there the first time around but I'm hoping to get there sooner this time. More focus on exercise will help in that effort. Regardless, I am in this for the long haul.
After a lazy morning of YouTube and Cookie Jam, I took a shower shortly after 11 and then sat down to enjoy a 3rd cup of coffee and my yogurt. I plan to be dressed and on the treadmill by 1 pm. The goal today is to hit the treadmill at 1 pm, 4 pm and 7 pm. We'll see how I do !
Today is my dad's birthday. He would be 85 if he were still alive. My mom would have been 84 on June 8. I hope they are happy together in Heaven, with their loved ones that went before them. Dad had the start of Alzheimer's or dementia when he passed, so it was a little bit of a blessing for him. He feared ending up stuck in a nursing home like his father and had he lived, that very well may have been his reality. It's hard to believe dad has been gone for over 12 years now and Alex has been gone for 10 this year. Where has the time gone ?
Enough of the sad stuff. I can't wallow in pity for myself or obsess about things I can't change. I have an obligation to live the best life possible in the years I have left, and that means getting fit and getting this weight back off. If nothing else, this gives me something to do right now.
My skin is continuing to heal from the poison ivy. I haven't taken Benadryl in a couple days and I haven't needed the anti-itch lotion. With much of the scabbing on my right hand gone, the affected areas don't look so horrific. After my shower today I rubbed some lotion on my hands to help with the healing process.
We had rain yesterday and that continued during the night and most of the morning. By 2 pm it's supposed to be dry until late morning tomorrow. I'm enjoying the break from the heat: it's only 63 outside !
It's 12:36 pm now and I'm going to get myself dressed, put my treadmill shoes on and make my protein shake. I'm watching a YouTube video that will be over in about 20 minutes, so that will be the perfect time to hit the treadmill ! It's 12:49 pm now and I'm dressed, have my shoes on and my shake is ready to go. The video I'm watching has about 15 minutes to go, so I'm finishing my 3rd cup of coffee and will then hit the treadmill just after 1.
Well, I got lazy and never made it to the treadmill at 1. Later, my day was derailed by a phone call and email from the career support person who's been trying to engage since I was laid off. Tomorrow was the last day to take advantage of that and since I wasted the past 3 months, she can only provide me with support for 30 days. I went ahead and set up a call with her tomorrow to see what she can do to assist with my job search. Later I went down the rabbit hole of scrolling LinkedIn and Glassdoor. I ended up stumbling across a Telecom Audit job (via a Google search) with a company that a former Syracuse colleague works at ! After I applied for the job I was digging around their linked in and saw her photo in the "people" section of the company ! This person was my biggest ally when I first started at AT&T and I would love to work with her at the end of my career. She lost her job in 2019 when Syracuse closed, so it's been 5 years since I saw or spoke to her. I sent a connection request on LinkedIn but I'm not going to mention having applied for a job. If I happen to get hired, she'll find out soon enough ! If I like the vibe and I'm offered a job, I will likely take it no matter what it pays. The company name is Digital Direction and they had no jobs posted on LinkedIn. You really do have to go to company sites in many cases, perhaps because some jobs are only shown to "premium" members. I refuse to pay for LinkedIn ! I really just need insurance benefits right now. I need some expensive dental work, so that will be priority #1 as soon as I have a job. I can use my pension, savings and IRA to meet any deficit between my expenses and my salary. I'm not sure why the sudden end of my career support services hit me like this. I've ignored the fact that it was there all this time, but I didn't realize it was only for 3 months either. If nothing else she can give me feedback on my resume. So the day was going well, then ran off the tracks and then a ray of hope appeared. Why am I not used to this ? LOL !
So my day was derailed BUT - and this is big BUT - I forced myself onto the treadmill around 7:30. There was no way this day was going by without at least one workout. I also didn't resort to comfort eating, even though those thoughts were running through my mind. I'm proud of myself for that. I'm also proud of getting a shower in. I didn't make my bed only because Minnie was snoozing on it when I went upstairs to take my shower. I didn't finish my vitamins last night because of my carrot tummy ache, so I finished them tonight with my snack.
It rained on and off all day and after my workout I closed all the windows and doors, since it was damp and chilly outside. I had the windows cracked for air all day but they're fully closed now. It's 70 in the house and that is comfortable.
After my 11 am call tomorrow I plan to gas up the car, get some produce at Wegman's and then have my inspection/oil change done. I'll also stop and get the mail. I've scheduled 2 workouts for tomorrow and there will be no excuses. All that should pretty much take up most of the day. Other things on my list of things to do are #1 getting a copy of my marriage license and #2 upgrading my license to a Real ID. However, I want to get some weight off before I do the license. You only really need it to fly starting May 2025 and I don't see myself going anywhere before then, especially if I don't have a job.
I did my daily check on my bank account today and there is enough money to cover the rest of my August expenses. For September I will have to move some money from my savings. I have to pay school taxes and that'll be a $1k bite out of my account. I also have to pay the $190 quarterly water/sewer bill. It's ok, as a good part of my $78k savings is from the $21k severance payment I received.
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