Day 25: Not Happy

 

Here is the link to my original Day 25. It was Monday January 28, 2019. My headline that day was "Be A Champion". I was doing well with the program and searching for a new job with AT&T, just in case. I need to figure out how to get that level of commitment back. I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 281 .. so I've gained more weight ! The good thing is I have no more "contraband" in the house, other than the remains of the pretzels. Going forward I am buying nothing that is not Nutrisystem compliant, other than whipped cream. That will be my only vice. 

Breakfast was a 270 calorie breakfast sandwich. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt and some pretzels. The pretzels are almost gone and I am not buying any more.

Since losing my job I've been drifting along trying to figure out what comes next. The job search is disheartening but I haven't given up hope yet. Unlike some people, I am not spending all day every day applying to jobs. Although it may not be the smartest thing to do, I'm taking my time and applying to jobs I think I would be good at and would enjoy. I'm not looking to set the world on fire. I don't want to manage people but I also don't want to be a slave. My only real goal is to have a job by 12-1 since that is when my medical coverage becomes super expensive.

Speaking of slaves, the AT&T strike is continuing. The bargaining team hasn't given any indication they are close to an agreement, but the company must be feeling the pain of 3 weeks without many of their front line employees. They will be paying out a ton of overtime when this is over !

Today is rock and roll bingo so I didn't bother even trying to motivate myself to get on the treadmill. I spent the morning watching YouTube and scrolling my phone. By noon I was thinking I need to get off the couch and do something. I did go online and add gift cards to my Nutrisystem account to cover my next shipment. I also made sure my Chase payment was scheduled and scheduled my National Grid payment. I have enough in my checking to cover the car payment and other small bills, but I'll need to transfer money for the credit card payment and the tax and water/sewer bills that are due at the end of the month. That will be over $2k. I hate to see my $78k in savings dwindle, but I have to remind myself that $21k of that is my severance pay. So that's what I'm actually spending right now. I also took some time to go through my email accounts and delete all the junk or stuff I don't need. I happened to check the latest email from USPS that previews your mail and I see the copy of my marriage certificate is there. Having that will allow me to get my Computershare account corrected and also get a passport and NY Real Id. I want to lose some weight before I get new ID's, so I'm going to wait on those.

By 3:30 I had showered, done my hair and put on makeup. I typically wait until just before I'm leaving to get dressed.

With nothing to do, I gave some thought to where I am with my weight. I'm not happy but yet I'm not trying very hard. Why is that ? I know I have the power to make the necessary changes to get this weight off. Tomorrow is another day and I'm going to put some effort into getting into a routine. I am setting one goal for tomorrow: get on the treadmill after breakfast. Breakfast means my entree and 1 cup of coffee. Anything good I do after that will be a bonus. Will it help to not put quite so much pressure on myself ? I don't know.