Day 45: Hello October !

 

Tuesday October 1, 2024

Here is the link to my original Day 45. It was  Sunday February 17, 2019. My headline that day was "Focus On The Mirror". It was inspired by this quote "When I look back on my life, I see pain, mistakes and heartache. When I look in the mirror, I see strength, learned lessons and pride in MYSELF." Back then I did feel pride about my weight loss and I look forward to returning to that frame of mind. Right now I am disgusted by what I see and I'm so disappointed in myself. Obviously I didn't learn a lesson, since I let myself gain almost all of the weight back. My hope is that I can lose the weight again and sustain the loss.

In positive news, the scale read 278 this morning, so it's going in the right direction ! I got up just after 8:30, fed the cats and gathered all the trash with the plan of putting it out after I had my breakfast. Well, wouldn't you know it - the trash men came at 9:20 and I hadn't yet put it out. Next week I will put it out on Monday night and I guarantee you they will come in late afternoon !

In other positive news, last night I finally took myself to bed early enough to take a shower, do skincare and brush my teeth before bed ! Since I was laid off I've gone to bed later and later and I get tired. There's no reason I can't "go to bed" earlier and watch tv upstairs ! I did everything but vitamins and litter boxes yesterday, so both of those are on today's agenda !

Breakfast was 160 calorie waffles with sugar free syrup. Late morning I had an 80 calorie yogurt. I didn't have a morning snack. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt. I didn't have a salad as I was planning on going out. Afternoon snack was an 80 calorie cheese stick and 100 calorie crackers. Dinner was a 250 calorie meatloaf sandwich with steamed carrots. Evening snack was a 140 calorie chocolate cupcake with whipped cream. I used the whipped cream since I had a lot of extra calories. My total calories for today are 1030 plus the whipped cream. Nutrisystem set my calories at 1400 since I need to lose over 100 pounds, but I've been sticking closer to 1200. 

After I fed the cats this morning I cut up a head of lettuce for salad. I chose two really heavy heads yesterday and that paid off, as the small head completely filled a large bowl ! I always try to pick really heavy heads since lettuce is not sold by weight. As of this morning, dock workers at major ports on both coasts went on strike, so the supply chain for a lot of goods may be interrupted. I'm glad I shopped yesterday ! I bet you people are going to run out today and empty the store shelves, like the pandemic panic. We'll see ! I do need to pick up some yogurt (I only have a weeks worth left) and I'd like to get some mums for the front steps, so I may go out later.

Turns out well over 100 people died as a result of Hurricane Helene, which devastated parts of North Carolina, Georgia and Florida. It's so sad for those people. What's worse is they keep saying that storms are going to get worse and worse due to global warming. You have to wonder how many times people along the coast will rebuild ? Do you just give up at some point ? I'd love to live on the water somewhere as long as it's an area not prone to hurricanes and flooding, but that will never happen for me.

By noon I had cleaned the litter boxes and swept the floor in the laundry room. I also started clearing cobwebs as the Daddy Long Legs are overtaking the room. I don't worry about getting rid of them frequently as they eat any other bugs or flies that might be around. They're scary looking but harmless !

Just before 2 I finally decided to go gas up the car, pick up some yogurt and look for some mums. I got gas first (2.88 a gallon !) and then headed to Hafner's. They had huge mums for only $7.99 so I got a white one and a deep pink one. I put them at the bottom of my steps and they look gorgeous. Hopefully the animals will leave them alone. I also found a pot for my begonia. It's outgrowing it's nursery pot and the ceramic pot that in came in doesn't have drainage. The pot I bought was $10.99 but it was just what I needed. Next stop was Walmart and then I headed home. I just bought yogurt and a 12 pack of Michelob Ultra. I like a beer now and then and they are only 95 calories - far less than the sweet wines I like. I was home just after 4 and I was starving. Despite thinking about food while I was out, I didn't give in. I had my afternoon snack when I got home and that satisfied me. By the time I got home my steps for the day were over 5,000, so I didn't feel too bad about not getting on the treadmill. By 7 pm I had reached 7,000 !

Before I went out I got out some cleaner and scrubbed the sink and counter in the laundry room. It was long overdue and it looks so nice now. The goal now is to keep it that way ! This evening I pulled 4 bottles of wine out of the pantry and put them in the fridge. All were bought last year so I need to start drinking them.

Today was another beautiful day but tomorrow looks to be chilly (low 60's) with some rain. The rain should be gone by the time I leave for rock & roll bingo. I haven't been exercising on Wednesday's because I go out, but I plan on doing the beach walk tomorrow and then taking a shower. I don't go out until 4:45 so I will have plenty of time to get ready.

When I went to bed last night I was looking for something to watch on tv and couldn't settle on anything. I tried watching a Post10 video on YouTube and it was so boring. It seems like I've moved on from his content. He has a girlfriend now, which is great and I'm happy for him, but his content has changed. He's not that loner out there camping in the deep woods in February or spending weeks driving up and down logging roads looking for clogged culverts. I don't know if others are starting to feel the same way, but I worry for him because he relies on the YouTube money to live. The girlfriend is from Canada and doesn't appear to work, since she's with him a lot. If the YouTube money dries up he'll have to get a real job and that would curtail his freedom greatly. I just hope they're smart enough not to have a child without giving some serious thought as to how and where they will live. She can't really stay in the US indefinitely and he can't stay in Canada indefinitely, so one of them would need to pursue citizenship in whatever country they decide to live in. I doubt he wants to give up his house and property to move to Canada, as it would be expensive to start over. Anyhow, I ended up watching some NG Slots and Mr Mike Slots video's. I can only stomach so much of NG, but Mr Mike is easy to listen to. I'm still working on watching all the letsdig18 content. Hopefully I'm getting close to the end of year 5. 

Below is what I achieved today. I am focusing on what I do each day, and not looking back to what I did or didn't do any other day.

Make the bed - x

feed cats - x

have breakfast - x

get dressed - x

exercise - 

clean litter boxes - x

take vitamins - 

have morning snack - 

have lunch - x

have afternoon snack - x

have dinner - x

have evening snack - x

shower - 

skincare - 

brush teeth -