Day 150 & 151: Quiet Days

 

I had so much hope for 2024, but I haven't accomplished anything. I failed miserably getting back on my diet and exercise program. I lost my job. I can't seem to keep my house neat, though I'm trying. Here is a link to my first post of 2024: New Year  I feel like I'm still in the same place. I started and stopped so many times and I have yet to "get it right". I am going to be starting 2025 with the same goals as 2024 .. and 2023 ... and probably 2022. I have to pull myself out of the hole I've dug and start this final section of life: retirement. I'm not going to fool myself into thinking I will magically find a job in the new year. In all honesty, I don't want a new job. This means I have ZERO excuses not to fully devote my life to losing the weight. I have nothing but time. I do not want to end 2025 in the same place. I want to be thinner and happier.

I wrote the paragraph above on 12-16-24. I'm going to repeat it in every blog through 12-31-24.

I was too lazy (or perhaps uninspired) to write yesterday. I spent the day doing the usual: watching YouTube and playing Cookie Jam. I did manage to finally make myself some tapioca pudding ! I made a triple batch. What the heck, go big or go home ! Sad to say, a triple batch is not that big ! Next time I might have to make a quadruple batch ! Anyhow, it turned out great and I enjoyed two large bowls while it was still hot. I had another bowl before bed. Beyond that, I did nothing. No shower, no dishes, no laundry, no nothing. Weather has been unremarkable, which is fine with me !

Today was just more of the same: watching YouTube and playing Cookie Jam. I've passed level 8800, but I still have about 1816 levels to go before I can move up a rank on my team.

I've been feeling so much better physically. I slept so well Thursday night. I didn't wake up early like I usually do, it was almost 8:40 and I felt rested for the first time in months. Today I was awake earlier and was tired when I got up. I wanted to sleep more but my bladder was about to explode and once I am out of that bed, there is no going back. I don't remember the exact time but I think it was close to 7:30. I had a cinnamon roll and some cinnamon roll coffee for breakfast. Later in the morning I had a nice big bowl of tapioca that I warmed in the microwave. I had the usual pizza for lunch. Dinner was an enchilada with salsa and low fat sour cream. I was going to have a yogurt after dinner but decided to skip right to the final bowl of tapioca. All I can say is I enjoyed every spoonful of it ! Had I eaten smaller portions, I would still have quite a bit left but it's not something that keeps for a long time. I would say I've satisfied this craving for a bit. Of all the food cravings I've had in the past year, this and pizza are the only ones that have been 100% successful. Is it a coincidence that it's something I made ? I think not. My remaining craving is enchiladas and I plan to make them soon. Even on Nutrisystem I feel a serving of one is permissible. My recipe makes 6, so I will make them and then freeze them individually in containers with some enchilada sauce. I can add shredded cheese when I heat one up.

Tomorrow or Monday I need to go to the grocery store and pick up what I need to make my dip for New Year's Eve. It calls for rotisserie chicken, but I may just buy chicken breast and bake it myself.  I might also buy the cocktail hotdogs that I got for Christmas Eve. I love them and I know Rich & Barb eat them too. I may stop at Spera's first to see if they have their pizza rolls available.

I didn't shower yesterday and as of 8:52 pm today I haven't showered, but I plan to do so when I go up to bed. I have to get myself back into that habit of an evening shower. I've been giving some thought to when I should "restart" Nutrisystem and I think I'm going to go with January 4. That was the date I first started in 2019 and back then it was a Friday. I started then so I'd be used to the change when I went back to work on Monday 1-7, after my vacation. My official starting weight was 304 the first time around. Although my starting date will be 1-4, I plan to cut out all the extra "junk" as of 01-01-25. I am starting the new year off fresh. One thing I plan to do is eliminate the sugar free syrups I add to my coffee. Going forward I will drink black coffee or tea. I will use up the syrups I have but I'm not buying any more. I also have to decide if I'm going to start having salad again. If I don't have salad I'm going to have to make a veggie with my lunch. This is not going to be easy because I've been out of control for so long. However, if I'm going to continue to be unemployed/retired, I need to focus on something other than YouTube and Cookie Jam. Also, I hate the way I look and feel. I really want to buy a new couch, but I'm not going to do that at this weight. It would just get ruined ! I may just buy it when I hit the 100 pound mark !

On that note, I'm going to fill up my water bottle and head upstairs to take a shower and brush my teeth, then go to bed.